Wednesday, July 23, 2008

expectations?

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everyone has 'em. but why? what are these pre-conceived notions we all have, and where do they come from?

and who are "they", you know, the ones we all talk about.. "they say, [insert random factoid]" and we all know it must be true.

but really, where do expectations originate? experience? or is it a prejudice? i used to hang out with people that did "blah", and now these people do to, therefore they must be the same, and act the same way?

so i was in a relationship with one person, and it went poorly in the end, does that mean that i will set myself up for failure in all relationships, because 1 ended up bad? well, i did set myself up for failure a couple times, and my heart got stomped on a little. in the ultimate... "conclusion" it's turned out better than i could have imagined. i ended up getting married to the best person for me. it's really like we were puzzle pieces made to fit each other. cliché, kitch, think what you will, but really there is no other way i might describe it.

so really, why do we have expectations? to limit the possibility if tangents things can go? we all have limited potential, and daily we choose to not use it. we get stuck in routines, and just go about our daily lives like nothing is wrong. but there's not truth in that. there's no passion. expectations are just a generalization that we're allowing to take over.

so we had a party at our house for ezra's birthday. i invited a buncha people over, and i thought it might be fun to have a friendly... debate/discussion/philosophy binge, and it got taken way out of the realm of friendly. i wanted to challenge my friends to discuss the origin of social norms, and see what they had to say. one "friend a" [shot down early in the evening by "friend b"] wanted to participate, but not step on anyones ["friend b"s] toes. and "friend b" i don't think was really up for the challenge.

which brings me to a bit of a rant: religion.
if you find it, great. if it finds you, better. if you just follow blindly, what does that make you? what does that do for your brain? i mean, you're brought up in an organized religion, and they [here's that word] expect you to agree. so you do. but is it because you truly agree, and you do believe that jesus christ died on the cross for your sins, and he is the son of the virgin mary and god?

what is faith? can you have faith and think for your self? does it work both ways? i guess i'm not really sure. i like to think that i have faith in something [the universe, nature, love, destiny-whatever you like] and i think for myself. i hope i'm not just a parrot.

::squak!!::

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