i guess i'm feeling depressed? i can't really figure it out, and it's hard to focus.
i'm feeling helpless. i'm even almost feeling useless. there is a dam about to burst right now, and i don't know what to do next. i don't know if i should just call Elfie to have a shoulder to cry on, i don't know if i should just escape more from my own brain and smoke. i got an email earlier today that pretty much removed all posibility of joining the air force. i was toying with the idea for stability, for movement, for purpose, for a paycheck, for a career i could retire from in 20 years.
thinking i have no creativity at the moment. it's sucking pretty hard. i feel like i can't even make a productive sentence. i'm not used to needing people. i am usually the one people turn to for support. perhaps i am too proud to ask for help? (no, not suicide dummy!)
i just feel...
desperate.
Like a waterfall in slow motion, Part One
2 years ago
1 comment:
I know how you feel, being down in the dumps is no fun!!! But asking for help is the best thing to do :) Are you comfortable talking with a head doctor? Do you need a girls night out? I think you should see what else is out there, your a smart young women, dont limit yourself :)
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